It was obvious he had not the slightest understanding of what she was saying. She decided that a less complicated approach might work.
"All right," she said. "Let me put it bluntly. If I had suggested we should jump into bed, shag like a couple of rabbits and then go our separate ways, you would have said yes. Right?"
He nearly choked.
"Yes. I probably would," he agreed as soon as he recovered. "Is that what you're suggesting? Or is it what we're leading up to?"
"No! Most certainly not." She was quite indignant. "Anyway, I can do that with Brian, and I love him. I don't need to do it with you. Ugh."
"All right, no need to be offensive about it," he said grumpily.
She smiled. "You know I don't want to do that," she told him. "I just don't do that sort of thing. I never have."
"Well what are we doing then?" he asked.
"You still don't get it," she tried to explain. "I'm not going to jump into bed with you and shag you, because I can do that with Brian. I might tie you to the bed and shag you, because I can't do that with Brian and I want to do it. That puts it simply. Now are you beginning to understand?"
He thought about it. "It sounds simpler than what you were saying earlier," he said. "Is that all there is to it? You want to use me for what you can't have with him?"
"That's it!" She was delighted that he was beginning to understand. "You said it in five words: I want to use you. I'm fairly sure you want to be used, and I'm also fairly sure you're quite happy for it to be me that's doing the using. Not only that, I think you're quite adventurous enough to let me try all sorts of things Brian would never even consider."
"What sort of things did you have in mind?" he asked, eyeing her suspiciously. "I'm not too keen on some of what you've already done!"
"I'm sure the good parts make up for the bad," she said with a twinkle in her eye. "Pleasure and pain go together, you know."
"Why pain? You don't enjoy hurting me?"
"Not particularly," she agreed. "I already said it's the control that I find exciting. I want to control you in ways that Brian would never allow me to do to him. Yes, I admit, it's sexual in so many ways. That's the point of it. Can't you understand?"
"I think so," he said. "I'll go for the tying me to the bed and shagging me!"
She sighed again. "So basic," she said. "I might. I might not. I'll tell you that it's something I would thoroughly enjoy, so you might be lucky or you might not. It's up to you. If you don't go along with the rest of it then you'll never know, will you?"
She looked at him in silence for a few minutes.
"Well?" she said. "Made up your mind? Shall we lock up the office and go back to my place or not?"
"We're on our way," he said, rapidly finding his keys and opening the door to leave.
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